Like the title says... this is just me talking.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Comfortable stranger

I am not someone who interacts with strangers online. I don't feel the need to make friends from all over the world unless I have met them...physically!

Day before yesterday though I had a long and very interesting conversation with someone from half way across the world. Someone I didn't know. Some one I still don't know how I got in touch with! The conversation and the thoughts that came after made me wonder about this strange phenomena that happens between people. A complete stranger that you feel so comfortable that you are willing to spill your deepest secrets and stand naked with out being fearing judgement. Maybe its knowing the other person isn't going to ask, or maybe because they are in the same position as you are...trepidation accompanied by a strange intimacy. Maybe because you cannot guess what they are thinking. You can never be sure whether you're saying the right thing so you wait with bated breathe, ready to justify, ignore, snub or accept what the other has to say. Then a positive response comes a long and your heart beats just a little bit faster and you think of the next thing to say. It has nothing to do with's not about waiting for feels like a new opening, a new blossoming of yourself if you will.
You look forward to the next conversation and long for it when it doesn't happen. Then you wonder if it meant the same to them as it did you, and if you said something or were misunderstood.
And then you wait..
Another conversation and another and another till the stranger becomes a friend...or you discover youre incompatible even though the first conversation felt 'magical'.

...then maybe you meet another stranger!